I simply cannot believe all the pain and heartache I’ve had… just since I wrote about blogging while in the process of a divorce. Our divorce has not even been officially filed. Some may say, “What are you waiting on?” Well… that’s a good question. I truly believe beyond a shadow of ANY doubt that God could heal our marriage. To quote one of my favorite lines from The Princess Bride, “It would take a miracle!” 
But, I know that He could. I’ve told the man I’m still legally married to (a.k.a. my husband) that I know it would most likely be putting ourselves through even more “Hell” than we’ve already had… to try and salvage our marriage. But as I told him, I am willing to do whatever it would take. The reason I am willing? God has given me faith in Him beyond what I can comprehend or explain. In some ways, I see it (my faith in Him) as fairly simple. Even if you don’t believe that God created the universe, I’m pretty sure it’s been scientifically proven that there once was a flood of the whole world. And, a God that can do that… can heal my marriage. (Not to mention the parting of the Red Sea and other miracles that God has done.)
Okay, I didn’t start out this post with the intention of “preaching.” So, what’s the point of this post? I honestly don’t know. I am grateful to Jennifer (from The Lemonade Connection) for her comment on that post from January of 2011. Even though my divorce technically hasn’t even started, I appreciate that she’d be willing to talk to me. And, I’m grateful to Dana (from Roscommon Acres) for her comment on that post. She said she’d take me as I am. To have a sister-in-Christ being willing to be non-judgmental of me means more than I can say.
Are there things that I wish I could change? Hardly a moment passes, that I don’t wish I could change something… even about that moment. 🙂 Maybe it’s my self-diagnosed OCD and/or perfectionistic tendencies that cause me to put that kind of pressure on myself. I wish I knew. If I did know, how would it make things better?
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